I'm worried about going to college and being surrounded by drugs and alcohol.
I know how I get when I'm depressed. I just need an escape and then along with being away from home? I can just tell it's gonna be BAD.
I miss being edge. I miss going to shows every weekend to distract me. I miss that positive atmosphere but now I just feel surrounded by drugs and alcohol. There's nothing else to do around here anymore.
All I have is words, music, and my bed. But these are starting to get old to me.
Winter is the worst. I'm so scared. I hate the thoughts I have during those lows. I want to be positive but its just always the same. Every. Single. Year.
There's very few things that bring me up from that low and that's smiling. There's one thing that always makes me smile. Just guess.
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